it's friday.
and it's 5 days to my final project presentation (excluding today, it's 4 days).
i am so afraid.
i feel so lost.
the lack of security is killing me.
sometimes i really feel like letting go. but i know i can't. and i can't afford to.
i am really very exhausted playing this 'game' with YOU.
are you trying to show to me that 2 years and 3 months of tertiary education did nothing to you?
it will be so pathetic if that's the truth.
you better wake up your _ idea and buck up.
i don't want to see any tragedy.

on a happier note, i went for a wonderful karaoke session with Jiahui yesterday :DDD
left school late as my subgroup had to meet a lecturer. but we still managed to sing for 4 hours plus. (the package was supposed to be 5 hours).
and we really sang our hearts out, at least for me la. no stress at all.
but Jiahui's injury did affect her singing abit. she couldn't sing very well yesterday. i have videos ;)
went shopping for awhile after that before we went home. (:

and Jiahui went back for parade with me on wednesday! :D
haha. i was elated. thank you, kaka (:
you're the first friend i have outside st. john who is so interested in what i do back in the Corps :D
join us la, as our first corps nursing officer :D
consider, consider ok? heh (:

CK, thank you for listening to my complaints, especially this week.
crucial week la, that's why.
you ni zhen hao (:

FINAL YEAR PROJECT PRESENTATION IS FINALLY OVER!!!
so happy :D
ok. but this is not the end yet.
there's still our website to submit. and AES too.
and mr tang said we may be going for the mass project display in week 17.
so have to beef up the slides, can't afford to do it at the last minute.
go, go, breastfeeding! :D

some of the things that mr tang talked about today was super hilarious.
during FYP presentation and the additional lab practice session.
hahahaha.
if i can be like him... (:

tried the PB waffle at the new waffle store in school today.
regretted D:
it wasn't really up to my expectations.

still can't stand her.
sigh.

on a happier note,
dad just called to ask if we wanted to eat apple pie from mac.
hahahaha.
random.
but i'm elated! :D

can't you be more responsible and enthusiastic?
where's your initiative?
since you took up this project, then do it well la.
whenever we ask you for the product and you just show that 'blank out' face and say that there isn't any product.
i just hate that.
we have been working on it since the term break. shouldn't there be at least a few slides?

the worst thing is, you can't accept other's ideas.
when people tell you that a certain thing is not feasible, think and evaluate la.
it's 4 against 1 leh.
and whatever we said, we have evidence/articles to support leh.

i don't understand why you want to bring your friend into the picture.
seriously, it doesn't do her any good you know.
and she sms-ed us to scold us when she only heard your side of the story.
what the hell.
and she can tell people that she can't stand the unfairness.
if you think that we have treated you unfairly, open your mouth and tell us directly la.
bullshit.
stop being a hypocrite la.
you've messed up all our lives.
and you wasted 3 hours of my life today, on a super unproductive meeting.


thank you seah for talking to me just now.
but our situation is really different la.

i wish i could just go overseas now.
to a quiet place where no one knows me.
perhaps i'll bring CK and Jiahui along so i'll have company.

Jiahui's stressed up too.
with different issues.
but we share a common one.
and we are having weird nightmares recently.
D:

can't wait for august.

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went bowling at home team NS clubhouse @ bukit batok with jiaying and yuxuan (:
talked while we played (:
all of us managed to win one game each :D
and i had like 2 strikes? (:

took 188 to lot1 for lunch after that.
couldn't decide what to eat so we walked around for awhile.
ate delifrance's student meal in the end :D

after the meal, all of us still didn't feel like going home yet so we decided to catch a movie.
ICE AGE 3! :D
i learnt something from it (:

LJS-ed and we talked again. (:
then we went home (:

thank you jiaying for being our outing coordinator! :D

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first time attending a different type of funeral.
it was simple and less 'noisy' as compared to the ones i've attended before.
rest in peace, aunt florence.

saw my long-lost aunt too.
she left home when i was still very young.
everyone thought she was gone for good.
mixed feelings when i saw her. idk how to describe.
and surprisingly, she knows my younger sister's name but not mine.
my sis was not even born when she left.
perhaps my 3rd and 6th uncles mixed up our names (that's nothing new... xD) and confused her. lol.

had dinner with dad, mum, bro and sis at chong pang.
i miss the wanton noodles there :D
they bought durians home after that.
and i realised that i'm the only one in the family who does not eat durian :O

hopefully the zone retreat that elyas organised is successful.
sorry elyas, for not attending the retreat.