I've been very busy these few days.
extremely exhausted.

my grandma left us on 29th January.
it was so sudden.
was supposed to settle some mobile phone issues at plaza singapura.
but the issues could not be settled due to some problems.
so we rushed to the nursing home as fast as we could.
dad came to fetch.
and i cried all the way. ):

saw grandma and i just couldn't stop crying.
no words can describe my feelings at that moment.
relatives were all there, discussing about grandma's funeral.

homed after that. and idk why, i just felt so overwhelmed.
didn't feel like talking to anyone at all also. idk why.
slept extremely early that night.

the next few days were all spent at grandma's house's void deck.
i went for my attachment in the morning then spend the rest of the afternoon at the void deck folding joss paper for grandma.

tried to take some hours off from work on monday but that lecturer told me i can't as it was the school's policy. ):
but i didn't let the matter rest as i believe special permissions may be granted on a case-by-case basis.
and i managed to get 3 hours off from work so i could send my grandma off.
thank you very much for your help, ms chiang. (:

okay, so saw grandma for 1 last time today.
cried again during the final ritual.
and everyone in the family sent grandma off on her last journey.

i really admire my grandma for her strong will power to live on.
she had been in very poor health since September last year but she held on till 29th January.
i'm glad that i got to play a part in caring for her during these 4 months.

bye, grandma.
rest in peace.
i love you.