went to nan hua to tell the NC teams abt the news.
breaks my heart to tell them abt it. they trained so long already. ):
some left stayed at the table to talk to me after that. others went away.
all left to do projects after that.
i stayed awhile to settle some paperwork and called mr ET.

bus-ed to HQ alone.
called him. but he didn't answer. disappointed.
i feel cheated.
at that moment, all the things he told me in the past seemed to be lies.
listened to the songs in my phone and he finally called.
i wasn't happy at all.
told him i going HQ and he still asked why.
i could have waited for him to go down by himself tml. but i decided not to, since he's so busy. not that i don't trust him, but who knows whether he would forget or not.
i didn't want to take the risk.
reached HQ and bought the stuff.
helped weiye do some stuff too.
had this sense of satisfaction when i left HQ. i guess that's how you would feel after you've completed something which you haven't done before. (:

weiye told me not to feel pressurised and that i'm not alone.
though i know i've still got him,
i really need MOTIVATION.
though i'm determined to complete OTC,
i really need MOTIVATION.

someone please motivate me.

` i've tried my best to hold on to you but i really can't hold on much longer.
don't depend solely on me to hold on to you;
make the effort to hold on to me too.
i really don't wish to see us go separate ways...
bweae forever.