Thursday, June 29, 2006
10:24 pm
had ACPC today. dionne is the next admin head. hmm. hopes she will do a good job bah. this time admin only got 3 ppl, including the CPBS coordinator. LOLS. i had like 5 members last year? YEAH. FIVE. and i always got nth for them to do. x)
audrey gave each of us a piece of cloth with our name on it. she sewed the things herself leh. mann. im so touched. nearly cried but i didn't. but she cried while talking to us. and yeah. i went to kiss her! hahaha. so funny. heex.
yeah. after we left sch, i went to mac with yvonne mdm, feng and viv. took cab there. when we alighted the taxi, we saw ah tan sir, suksi mdm, umi mdm and barry sir walking to mac. WAHAHAHA. we're faster.
ah tan sir kept poking me. so i decided to pass it on to viv and she passed to yvonne mdm. haha. we poked each other like siao. omg. ah tan sir even tried to poke me with a chilli-coated french fries. yeah. stopped him in time. hahahaha.
im sick again. AHH. fever. having blurred vision now. and tml is st john day. i hope i can make it. feeling so terrible now lor. that burning sensation in my throat. ARGH.
love, now & forever
Sunday, June 25, 2006
9:59 pm
AHH! SCHOOL'S REOPENING TML!!!
ok. i'm having mixed feelings. part of me wants to go back to school coz i miss them. another part of me hopes that the holiday can be extended. but yeah. we all know it's not possible. wahh. i miss those days when i can wake up late. but come to think of it, i haven't been waking up late! had remedials for the first 2 weeks of the hols, 5D4N combined corps camp, 3D2N family chalet. did some revision too. so yeah. since the holidays are ending, i shall plan wat to do starting from tml.
1) study hard for my prelims & o's
2) do a proper study timetable
3) organise my worksheets
4) eat more of the green stuff that i used to hate
5) sleep more
6) slim down
yah. SLIM DOWN. omg. i've been like so sickly recently. think my intestines are going bonkers again. hope it's not serious. don't wanna stay in the hospital again. must work hard to shed those extra fats.
love, now & forever
Saturday, June 24, 2006
4:08 pm
had promotion parade today. congrats to cheewee and jim. promoted to cadet leader wors! u guys are great! yeah. congrats to all those who were promoted as well. =D. shld congratulate myself too. haha. coz i didn't fall out despite i was like kinda not feeling well. felt bloated due to that mirinda strawberry drink. arghh.
yeah. then we took loadds of photos today. took with so many ppl. haha. it was really fun lah. and yeah. audrey found out abt the thing. and she told yingqiu. omg. then suddenly like everyone know abt it lor. ahh! and they actually went to ask him abt it. piangs. so paiseh lah. can die mann.
MH cried today when she said she won't cry. almost cried with her. intending to keep my tears till ACPC. haix. i think most of us will cry on that day bah. I'M GONNA MISS THE SEC 4 SQUAD of 2006!!!then we went to mac for lunch. and on the way to clementi, he sat at the seat infront of me and audrey. all because of audrey lah. ask him sit there. haiyo. so weird leh. x]
umm. as i have mentioned in my previous post, ah tan sir linked me le. dunno whether u will read it or not. but yeah. nvm. just wanna say sorry to u. =]
love, now & forever
12:14 am
yeah. umm. congrats to u. got promoted to cpt yea. hahax. continue to get promoted kaes. didn't get to congratulate u personally today. coz i was shy? haha. ok. it's just me lah.
met ah tan sir at taka at abt 2.45pm. then went to pei him support his sis and cousin in a marathon. yeah. they have to stay awake for like two nights or so? and they have to do loads of puzzles if im not wrong. think its very tiring lor. but for the sake of those prizes, haha. =D
then we went to HQ to meet umi mdm. coz the food was coming at ard 3.30pm. ok. no one else except me, ah tan sir and umi mdm was there. then we waited like crazy lor. coz we wanna go buy drinks. then the AI ppl came.then tanglin senior trainers. then.. yeah. ppl just kept coming. x)
ok. so yongjie and yufeng started the fire. haha. so slow. was with yongjie all the while, stand beside him and once in a while, fan him. lols. then think yufeng was abit unhappy. lols. who cares. yeah. then everytHing just went on until weiye sir and barry sir came. everyone went 'wow' when they saw weiye sir in his army uniform (the formal one i think, dunno wat number.) haha. thought he looked weird lah. first time see him in this.
and yeah. dunno wat came over me lah. i was restless lor. hmph. can't sit still. shall be more disciplined lah. arghh. celebrated xinyi mdm's bdae too. with ice cream cake. but the cake ended up on our faces. ok. u shld know wat i mean.
i think im gonna gain weight again. arghh. coz i drank half bottle of the mirinda strawberry drink. omg. and i drank it like plain water?! wth. shall do more sit-ups. stupid me.
hmm. he's online. shan't talk to him lah. better go to slp coz tml got PROMOTION PARADE. ahh!
love, now & forever
Friday, June 23, 2006
12:05 am
yeah. ok. i know it's very rare to see me still online at this hour. but yeah. just want to let out my emotions. dun want to bottle them inside.
it's over. just finished talking to MH on the phone. and yeah. she told me that he knew i liked him. but he act blur. ouch. that 'act blur' thing kinda pricked my heart a little. dunno who told him lor. or was it my actions? then she said he asked me not to have too much hope. OUCH. this was the phrase that killed me.
haix. shld have saw that coming. shldn't have fall into the pitless pit. he's online now. but he's not talking to me. perhaps he dunno that MH already told me. or maybe he knows. =[
ahh. nvm lah. i shall not be defeated. shall not shed a tear. shall continue to act blur and live in my own world until i can face him normally again. dunno when it started but i know where it ends. weird. i can feel nothing now. i think im numbed now. haha. can finally tell ah tan sir to link me.
bbq for combined corps camp trainers and officers tml. heard he sponsored 200 bucks. yeah. ok. it's no big deal actually. let's hope there'll be no sabo-ing session tml like the previous ncoc bbq. it'll be awkward for both me and him lah. ok. or maybe it's me only.
mann. i feel like going to some beach now and shout till my throat burst. shout till i got no voice to speak. AHH.
ok. i think this will be the last time i'm saying this. i like neeon orange. =]
love, now & forever
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
5:10 pm
fine. just go ahead and spread that stupid rumour. just because of a display picture, my msn nick and the coincidential change of the display picture when u talked to me. it's stupid can. didn't know u can actually find so much fun in teasing me. wth.
yeah. i appeared to be alright. but deep down in my heart, it was bleeding profusely. it was too much for me to take. why did u even do that lor? was there a need to? u're so insensitive lah. stupid u. can u be more observant to your surroundings? do u know that im still waiting for ur hint?
ur good buddy knows i like u. but yeah. he said he won't tell u. ok. he's nice.
u have been reading other ppl's blog but not mine, or at least i think so. like won't u wonder why i haven't update my msn space for so long?
crap. arghh.
love, now & forever
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
2:40 pm
ok. im back from my family chalet le. it was quite ok lah.
been thinking through the matter. thought i shld just give up. dun wanna end up not even friends. but it's like easier said than done lor. hate this lah. it's difficult to like someone. but it's more difficult to tell that person that u like him. especially when that person is kinda close to you. manns. can someone just enlighten me?
talked to MH ytd. she said she allow me and him to be together. hmm. but, it's him leh. i dunno what's in his mind. haiya. if u know abt this already, can u dun act blur? drop me a hint can? let me know what would be the next step to take. i want to know. i really do.
yeah. enough of the sad stuff.
one of my net friend talked to me today. haha. so long nv chat with him le lor. glad that he still rmbs me. yeah anson. u nv see wrongly. i said im glad ok. hahax. he's from RJC. so pro. umm. ok. i dunno wat to write le. shall just end off here.
love, now & forever
Sunday, June 18, 2006
11:42 am
in abt 25 minutes, i'll be leaving my hse and going to a chalet with my family.
i think i'll be spending these 3 days thinking whether i should give up on him or not. im really confused and lost. i wish to go a step further, but what if, he don't think this way too? what if we can't even be friends after i tell him abt all those stuff that i've kept to myself for so long? there's so many questions popping up in my mind. manns. they're killing me. im like suffocating soon.
i don't know what's in his mind. whether he knows abt this already or not. how i wish that he could give me some hints so that i could make a decision. just a small hint will do. i'll be waiting.
i'll be missing u, neeon orange.
love, now & forever
Saturday, June 17, 2006
11:55 pm
yeah. im back from combined corps camp 2006! it was so fun lah.12.06.06
went to nan hua at abt 3.30pm. lols. was on time lah. then did admin stuff after i put my barang barang in the senior female trainers bunk. ah tan sir told me that there was no internet connection. lols. so i had to follow barry sir to fetch umi mdm then go her hse print. barry sir's driving skills not bad wor. but we didn't communicate much during the journey to umi mdm's hse until we reached yishun. he couldn't find umi mdm's block. so i helped, since i always go there to makan. haha.
finished wat we were supposed to do, we went to sembawang shopping centre's giant to look for a rice cooker. but in the end, we didn't buy the rice cooker coz it was too small. instead, we bought umi mdm's toothbrush. x)
then we went to fetch suksi mdm from her work place. lols. she brought a mini water dispenser. haha. were chatting on the car so noisily lor. heex. sent suksi mdm home first then umi mdm, barry sir and i went for our dinner. then we received a call from yvonne mdm, that we were supposed to reach sch by 8pm. if not we cannot enter. wahh. we nv really finish our dinner then we chionged to fetch suksi mdm and rushed back to nan hua. were late by a few minutes.
the day ended with some camp briefings and yeah. i bathed at 2am. omg. the water was so cold lah. i slept at ard 4am, but yeah, the officers say i didn't sleep. lols. but it was yvonne mdm, ah tan sir and james sir who didn't sleep lah. they were laughing like mad the whole night. x)
13.06.06
trainees booked in today. some nh trainees were so early lor. lols.
the first parade was quite messy. coz some trainees nv come and there were some lost birds all over. but yeah. lucky got chui han and weixian (my admin ppl). the grp commanders were kinda slow lah. so the whole day program got pushed back quite abit.
after the camp admin, i went back ops room to redo the nominal rolls and stuff. lols. do like siao. chionged everything. and it was like lunch time when i finished the stuff. then i went back to ops room again. then sit there whole day again. then it's dinner again. omg. i felt as though i just had lunch 5 minutes ago lor.
then had debrief and the trainers went to bathe. i went to bathe with nora mdm at abt 3am. then we had supper. lols. nora mdm decided to form supper club. she was the president, and im the vice president. lols. so fun. we decided to have supper every night.
14.06.06
woke up early again. they had PT. but yeah. the trainees were not enthu yet.
lunch was ok lah. the trainees had map reading course while the trainers had campfire discussion. heard yifang say ah tan sir taught them the humchimpeng, cheecheongfun and roti prata cheers. lols. ah tan sir is so funny lah.
then had early dinner coz later got night hike. once again, i was feeling bloated. omg.
went to clementi ntuc with nora mdm, yvonne mdm, ah tan sir, james sir, aud, yingqiu and jim. we like some hungry people dashing ard the supermarket to look for food. ah tan sir was nice. he treated me to a bottle of ice apple tea. 1.5litre de hor. lols. also bought the high class pocky. haha. i bought m&ms.
then went to buy neeon orange's herbal tea. one weird person lah. everyone bought the soft drinks and snacks but he just wanted herbal tea. and crazy me was like so eager to go to the store to get it for him lah. manns. and yah. i paid for his herbal tea. stoopid me lor. shall control myself.
and guess wat. i actually asked him to pay me back the herbal tea money. arghh. im so stoopid lah. but he also just went into the ops room and get money to give me. shouldn't have taken the money lah. coz i still owe him 5 bucks. lols.
15.06.06
i saw neeon orange dancing! lols.
campfire. ahh! the weather was like so threatening lor. then ah tan sir made a qing tian wa wa. lols. and the rain stopped. so magical. heard from other trainers that it was nice. i wasn't there for campfire. was not in good mood lah. went to toilet to cry. coz of someone. luckily vivian was there. i was so sad lor. then everyone said i looked tired. omg. viv even say i got wrinkles.
the buffet was not really nice lor. esp the fish. went to listen to viv play piano after eating. then saw zelin sir. didn't go over immediately. then he smsed me. told me he was leaving le. so i chionged back to the canteen. chat with him awhile then vivian came. say me and zelin sir you1 hui4. omg. neeon orange was just behind lah. so paiseh.
and yah. we took pics at night. was standing next to my buddy for camp, NG YONG JIE. lols. im the m&m protector and he's m&m thief. heex.
16.06.06
last day of camp le. early morning packed barang barang and the ops room. then went to ava room to prepare for the photo and prize presentation.
the photos were really nice. esp those with neeon orange dancing in the friendship dance. haha. didn't know he can actually dance so well. tango. haha. he had so many partners lor. was one of his partners. but i was too shy. so i just ran away. lols. sorry.
the prize presentation was nice too.
overall, this camp was really nice. really enjoyed myself to the fullest. thanks to all who made this camp a success!
to suksi & umi mdm: thanks for having so much trust in me mdms. =D
to yvonne mdm: thanks for ur nutella. x)
to barry sir: haha. thanks for the coffee.
to shusian mdm: thanks for providing me with hot water.
to nora mdm: supper club forever! hahax. thanks for those treats. =D
to xinyi & huihui mdm: thanks for those words.
to ah tan sir: wahahahahahaha! lols. thanks for making my 5D4N so enjoyable. thanks for the apple tea and high class pocky too. lols.
to weiye sir: er. yah. buy longer shorts can. x)
love, now & forever
Monday, June 12, 2006
10:50 am
in abt 25 minutes, i'll be leaving my house for the national sudoku competition. then i'll head down to nan hua for camp.manns. im gonna miss HIM so much. shall update after camp. sure got lots of interesting stuff. x)
love, now & forever
Sunday, June 11, 2006
1:06 pm
omg. im so happy today! coz it's HIS bdae! haha.said happy birthday to him online. whoots. i think im getting more daring. lols. oh yah. and he said thanks. =D. oh no. im going crazy again. x)wish i could celebrate with him. haha. ok. i know thinking too much. coz it won't happen AT ALL.to HIM: heys. happy birthday once again. though i know u won't be reading this, i just wanna tell u that u really light up my life. days without u are boring. lols. ok. smile always, botak. xP
love, now & forever
Thursday, June 08, 2006
4:20 pm
yeah! im so happy. i got into the semi finals for the Logic9 National Sudoku Challenge! omg. so unbelievable can. =Dwent to school for bio extra lesson today. jiaying, tiantong and shuying said my hair was nice! heex. had a haircut yesterday. my head seems to feel lighter. x)been doing combined camp stuff everyday. my goodness. this is the first time i do admin stuff do till i going crazy lah. kids nowadays... dunno wat to say abt them lah. arghh. changed the groupings so many times. i'm still doing now. haix. grps comms too. dunno wat to say abt them. waiting for my phone to ring. wonder how long more do i have to wait.saw neeon orange online just now. felt like chatting with him. but in the end i didn't. haiyo. this world is getting weird day by day.
love, now & forever
Saturday, June 03, 2006
7:26 pm
happy burfdae to my mummy! no. not my biological mum. she's my corps officer. yeah. just went to her blog. omg. im sad. dunno why lah. was overwhelmed with sadness while reading her last post. manns. din know she was feeling sad today. if i knew, i would have tried my very best to make her laugh, or maybe smile. arghh. i must be more sensitive in future. shld have bought the cake. but yeah. cakes dun taste nice if they were kept for too long. wanted to celebrate her bdae with her.she's not feeling well. but she still went to hq to submit those forms for us. wanted to go with her. dunno why in the end i didn't go. dun remember a single thing now. feel guilty. should have tagged along. haix. she did so much for us. but this is how we treat her. ARGHH. so angry with myself now.how i wished i could always stand by her, just like how she stands by me. she's like a big sister to me. forever so concerned abt me. we could even share our secrets, joys and unhappiness together. she appears to be so strong on the outside. however, those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible. i still remember those words she said that day. to mummy: you must be strong ok. if u decided to leave "john", then just leave. i'll support you all the way.
love, now & forever
Friday, June 02, 2006
8:30 pm
hahax. i just reached home after my outing with JTYS. im so happy today!we took bus to the yuki yaki at cineleisure. did some charity on the way there. hahas. bought a windmill from to ppl doing flag day. 5 bucks. and the 5 of us shared. so meaningful mann. but yah. found out that the yuki yaki at cineleisure closed down le. aiya. no wonder the phone could not get through when we called to make reservations lah. =[then we called the marina square branch. haha. made reservations and we chionged there. heex. nearly got lost coz we can't find the restaurant. omg. lucky we managed to locate it awhile later. if not i'll have no strength to walk le. i was hungry. lols.yeah. we had steamboat and teppanyaki. sushi too. haha. everything tasted so nice lor. esp the herbal chicken soup. yummy. and i found out that yuxuan & shuying can actually eat alot. JTYS lurves the sambal squid. haha. too bad i can't eat. kept asking the waiter to refill the soup and change the aluminium foil. and we used up alot of butter. tiantong and jiaying were the first to cannot tahan anymore. lols. but yuxuan and shuying just continued eating. shuying kept taking pics too. lols. she dun seem to be able to concentrate on watever she do leh. bad habit. and yeah. we had ice cream buffet too. OMG. it's so nice can. really taste nice and the 5 of us had great fun in trying to freeze the ice cream. hahaha. i really enjoyed this meal.then we went bowling. my dearest jiaying discouraged me from playing. but in the end i still play. lols. my leg like abit swollen again now. shld have listened to her. lols. ok. we met a weird guy while bowling. he just stood there and see me and dearest play. i feel so uncomfortable lah. then he suddenly talked to me. say my bowling technique wrong. say wat i shld bend down and roll the ball instead of throwing it. pls lah. my ankle is injured lor. won't be able to perform like usual wat. that guy is really weird lah. he only talked to me and not jiaying. so scary lah. but he taught me quite some stuff which i thought was useful. however, i think neeon orange is a much better instructor than him to a LARGE EXTENT. x)
love, now & forever
