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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

3:57 pm

ok. im sad. had a tiff with my bestie. dunno what's wrong with him lah. was supposed to go look for teacher with him during my lunch break. yeah. i was abit late. he looked unhappy. so i asked. he said there was nth wrong. but his face says the opposite lah. asked again. and he just fake a smile. was worried abt him.

met him after sch to see how things went. he said almost all done. and he told me he haven't eat since morning. i was like so angry with him lah. then i jokingly said i didn't want to talk to him anymore. and he said dun talk dun talk lah. WTH. fine lah. gave me attitude. i just walked away.

he smsed me a while later and told me he was having a high fever in the morning and couldn't eat. then say wat want me concentrate on my lesson so didn't tell me. that's stupid can. din he know i'll be even more distracted if he didn't tell me? like he first day know me like that lah! arghh. im damn pissed off by him.

today is such an unhappy day manns. FREAK.

love, now & forever

Monday, May 29, 2006

6:13 pm

had physics and chinese remedial today. arghh. they were boring. did the physics 2004 mid yr paper. omg. it's like kinda difficult. shall ask jiaying for help tml. then we had like 150min of break time before chinese remedial. ate with the 4 of them and shuzhen. well. the food was nice. the "80cents chicken" is back! hahax. then we chiong the yan2 jiang2 gao3 which was supposed to be handed in during chinese remedial. lols. ok. i finished quite fast. shared ipod nano with jiaying.

chinese remedial is like omg. dunno wat to say. went through the last lesson in the textbook i think. then we were supposed to write an argumentative essay on friendship. everyone was sian. lols. and it took me quite long to finish writing but luckily it was within the time frame. helped jiaying and shuying. lols. i realised listening to chinese songs do help when writing essays. heex.

then went to car porch to wait for my dad with my dearest jiaying. was looking at the band practice in the parade square. thought it was quite nice. they going to the event at sentosa this weekend. i watched till sian and turned around to talk to jiaying. and i saw HIM. lols. i practically went crazy. super duper high. heex. he really lights up my life! jiaying said he looked nice in jeans. haha. indeed. =D

i told jiaying i lurve her today. and she said kk loves me too. lols. dunno wat's wrong with her. x)

love, now & forever

Saturday, May 27, 2006

7:37 pm

went to school this afternoon to pass neeon orange the invitation cards. neeon orange, ah tan, umi, shusian and barry were in the sj room with yufeng. and i just walked in like that. omg. stupid me. arghh. shall not go into the sj room when i just wake up nxt time. yeahh. and guess wat, i have to change the invitation card details. manns. i chionged the cards out ytd till early this morning yet when i showed the cards to them, they were kinda bo chup. ok. maybe im over sensitive.

didn't speak much to neeon orange today. he looked into my eyes. and i looked into his too. but we just dun seem to have anything to say to each other. didn't even smile at him. guess i wasn't in a good mood.

then i saw HIM. heex. he walked past the sj room and saw me. he smiled and pointed to my ankle. hahax. he's really nice. so concerned abt me. =D. since that moment, i've been smiling to myself. lols. he lights up my life. i think im falling into that deep deep pit once more.

met MH with yufeng and cheewee today. she told us some sad stuff. yeahh. dun think so much kaes. u'll be fine. u're my mummy worx. will be supporting u all the way. jiayou. dun worry abt us too. the 3 of us will do our best to help. won't let it fall. rmb our kbox session on the 4th of june kaes.

things are happening so quickly recently. does this indicates anything? i hope not.

love, now & forever

Thursday, May 25, 2006

8:27 pm

damn. i think im seriously stressed out. had a "how to cope with stress" workshop during assembly today. found out that my stress level quite high. coz almost all the stress indicators seemed to apply to me. arghh. must be because of her. damn. get outta my life u freak!

talking on phone with yufeng now. lols. he sounds so man! i like! haha.ok. i think im going crazy soon. suddenly so high. x)

thinking of kk now. haha. since i injured myself, i've been seeing him every morning. so happy. been discussing abt him with jiaying every morning. lolx. he's nice!

love, now & forever

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

5:02 pm

manns. im so tired.school was sian today. dunno why.

yeah. today dunno which dumb person say must clear locker for the holiday. then jiaying and i went to the staff room after sch to get boxes from teachers to bring our books home. saw kk first. asked him. but he was busy lah. then saw our chinese teacher. she only managed to get us the cover of the boxes. lols. so shallow. can put wat? then we decided to ask mray. haha. he dun have boxes. then i asked for plastic bags. lols. he went into staff room and took out some plastic bags. i took the largest one. heex. then jiaying and i quickly chiong up to class and packed our stuff with shuying coz my dad was coming to fetch me and they are coming along. tiantong was held up by her. arghh. waste time.

talked to mray during lunch today. hahax. went with jiaying. he taught us a few techniques to handle her. *muahahahaha* i thought those ideas were really creative and good. mray is really nice manns. lols. he talked to us till like 1310 le then he went off for lessons. heex. so nice of him to walk to class with us too. but i was paiseh. so asked him go first. =]

i just lurve jiaying so much. she's been a great help to me since i sprained my ankle. hahax. i lurve TYS too. they are really nice too. thank you for all the things you have done for me. =D

love, now & forever

Monday, May 22, 2006

8:05 pm

arghh. im pissed. with her. she's biased lah. seriously lor. summore not only im saying this can. jiaying, tiantong and even yuxuan who is usually not involved in the "politics" agreed. dunno wat she wants. but im depressed again.
FREAK. why do you want to make my life so miserable? i was fine after friday. but u made me depressed again today. don't you know it hurt me badly? why did you even need to single out my name? do you know that by doing that you might cause the class to hate me? you did it last year. and you're doing it again now. STOP IT NOW. you're torturing me. i did so much to make them trust me again. and yet you're trying to take their trust away from me. i'm tired of all your nonsense already. JUST GET OUTTA MY LIFE!

how i wished you didn't exist at all. FREAK.

love, now & forever

Saturday, May 20, 2006

11:03 pm

19.05.06

was not really feeling well physically and emotionally. i was down with flu and my ankle is still recovering. arghh. couldn't hear myself clearly and my nose got blocked. damnn terrible lah.
been really stressed too. by midyrs. and her. so stressed then i could just breakdown any moment. luckily i had jiaying by my side. she tried to calm me down. lols. couldn't take it anymore. so went to look for mray during our lunch. asked whether he was free to talk after sch coz i had smth to tell him. and he said ok. told me to call him after school.

he's really a nice teacher lah. an excellent listener too. omg. he can be a counsellor if he dun wan to teach anymore. lols. first time i felt that he was so qin1 qie4. i told him abt her. he told me not to be so affected by her words. i'll always remember wat he told me. "results are not important, but it's the process that is important".

felt so relaxed after talking to him. lols. and everything seems to be back to normal or even better. coz i saw kk after that. lols. x)

20.05.06

went for ccc'o6 meeting today. reached sch @ 0745H. lols. so early. but some sec3s, yvonne mdm and even cheewee was there le. =]. then yufeng came. followed by neeon orange. haha. i smiled when i saw him.

walked ard the sch with mdm, logistics dept ppl and PS. haha. feels weird with crutches lah. wonder how long more then can dun use. we crapped alot while walking.

then neeon orange brought the trainers for their map reading exercise. other trainers left, leaving me, ah tan sir, yvonne mdm and cheewee. we had nth to do and ended up sitting in sj room. ah tan sir was hungry. so he suggested we go mac eat and wait for neeon orange. we took cab go. lols.

neeon orange took really long to reach lah. omg. i was giggling when i saw him outside mac, walking in. heex. im happy. then we had another small discussion and it was time to go. smth funny happened.

mdm told neeon orange to go meet his "prospective father-in-law". and dunno wat happen to me, i said "ya lor" so loudly. omg. *arrbishh* so paiseh. AHH.

love, now & forever

Monday, May 08, 2006

7:33 pm

hahax. im so happy today lor.

firstly, i saw him today. haha. i forgot to bring my calculator for elective geog. so jiaying suggest that i borrow from him. and yeah. i did. but i wasn't bold enough to ask him. so jiaying asked for me. and he agreed to lend. hahax. so nice of him. he asked us to get the calculator from his pigeon hole after our english paper. heex. i went down with jiaying despite my ankle still hurts. she says im obsessed with that calculator coz i held it so tightly. lols. im not ok. x)
after geog paper, i decided to return his calculator personally. hahax. thought of leaving it in his pigeon hole then sms him. but yeah. i thought it wouldn't be nice to do that. and i think i made the right choice. coz he finally noticed my injured ankle. he even told me his past experience. heex. we had a short chat lah. but that was enough to keep me smiling. jiaying said i was mad. lols. she also told me that my cheeks were super RED. haha. ok. i admit i blushed.

secondly, neeon orange smsed me during my geog paper. hahax. was thinking who will sms me during exam. then found out that it was him. i was so happy lah. dunno why. just one sms and im like going crazy. and he told me he was working. hahax. ok. working still sms me. heex. he's nice.

today was a very fruitful day for me. really very happy today. JTYS are really nice to me. so glad that i have them as my frens. esp jiaying. omg. she's the nicest person on earth. hahax.

to jiaying: i just can't smile without euu! x)

love, now & forever

Saturday, May 06, 2006

6:23 pm

*haishh* im still in pain. dunno why my ankle still hurts so much despite the fact that i took my medicine regularly. feel like eating porridge again. hahax. =D

neeon orange hasn't been online lately. wanna ask him qns abt chemistry. but yeah. nvm. i think he's busy. i shan't call him unnecessarily anymore lah. it's getting weird talking to him. wonder what's happening. i think the kbox session on the 21st of May will be fun if he really decides to join us.

im looking forward to the outing with JTYS. hahax. hope my ankle will be better by then. i'll be so difficult to walk with crutches on orchard rd lah.

to HIM: 我想，我真的爱上你了。

love, now & forever

Friday, May 05, 2006

3:46 pm

yeah. im blogging once again. went to sch today with crutches. everyone was looking at me.

im so suay lahx. i sprained my ankle when i alighted the bus at jiaying's hse de bus stop. so sudden lah. i wasn't even mentally prepared. omg. IT HURTS ALOT!

my ankle was swollen, like a pig's trotter. so scary can. then i felt so weak. lucky got jiaying, tiantong and audrey. they were so nice to accompany me wait for my dad despite there's biology exam tml. 16 chapters wor. tedious work.

and i went to tui1 na2. omg. life's worst experience. i felt as though i lost my leg.

i saw him this morning. wished he saw me too.
- meetooeuu -

love, now & forever